Wanna play?

                 Just sit there for a second, I have something for you; let`s play a game, I talk, you listen and after that we can share emotions. How about I tell you lies and you believe everything and after that I stab you in the heart? How about I`ll play with your mind and there is nothing you can do, so you`ll might as well enjoy it too. 
                How many times have you felt that way, but there was nothing you could do? How many times did you wish for it to stop, but it never did? How many times have you cried yourself to sleep because the amount of emotions was enormous and you were just an innocent soul. Were...because they killed it and transformed it into something dark. They sold it, after they played with it, as might as well considering throwing it away..it would not make any difference.
"And now we`re shocked to see that whatever she is on, it`s affecting her big time, we never saw her like that"
             You are standing now in front of the results of all your actions; hope you`re proud of yourself...you changed her in a way that will never allow her to change back. You took her innocence and her purity, you wanted to take her dreams too and you are now about to take her the hope that she is counting on right now. Hope that things will get better in time, the only thing that hasn`t betrayed her, yet.
            It would have been easier going away, just her, no interactions, in fact, that was what she craved for. That freedom of action that would have cut herself from everything that was hurting her.
            She loves the way she is, but not everything about her, there is a dark side inside her, and it`s winning space more and more as each day passes. She lies, she cheats, she gets away with it, but then it haunts her and it doesn`t give her peace. And she is disturbed because of the fact that every time she closes her eyes all she sees it`s what she did or what she wants to do...and those aren`t nice things.
Still, she enjoys it, she started to have a thing for other people`s misery, she somehow enjoys their suffering. Yet, she feels bad about it, she wont admit it, she just tries to live with it, and she does, but...though she wants it...she thinks about the consequences and that makes her feel guilty, though...there was no guilt in her desires, or decisions.
She has become this....halfperson, that caught her in a shadow so thick, she cannot find her way out of it.
And sometimes she really feels like she belongs there, but...there are moments when she realizes that that is only temporary, and that she will eventually come back to whatever it was that made her the way she used to be.

Lykke Li- Posibility

M-am tot gandit zilele astea la ce as putea face pe viitor, sa imi placa, sa imi aduca satisfactie si sa simt ca fac totul cu placere si mi-a venit in minte fix M by M.J , care, ca in fiecare an, are internship-uri incredibile in NY si Londra. Am rasfoit putin site-ul, m-am uitat la internship-urile disponibile si am dat doua email-uri.Amandoua sunt pe timp de vara si includ si marea agitatie cu Fashion Week and on and so forth.
Mi-am delectat ochii si am luat ideea in calcul, imbratisand-o cu entuziasmul unui chocolate addict aflat in magazinul cu dulciuri. Ma tenteaza enorm de tare New York-ul, mereu am avut un crush urias pentru marul urias, insa e atat de departe. Londra devine asa stearsa si insignifianta atunci cand sta pusa pe un taler, defavorizata fiind total de rivalul ei acerb.


Acum stam cuminti si asteptam sa vedem in ce consta exact internship-ul, cum e cu accommodation-ul si cu restul lucrurilor ce trebuie luate in calcul atunci cand iei o asemenea decizie.

Love,

A.